Tuesday, February 1, 2011

College... my plans, God's plans...

I've always know that God will take care of me. I've always known that He'll fulfill His plans for my life if I trust Him. I've always known that He has a plan.

But now.... high school only has a few short months left and graduation is fast approaching. I'm finding myself worried, forgetting to trust in the Lord. I'm a firstborn; I feel like I need to have everything planned out. :) I'm fairly certain that my purpose is life is to lift God's name up and help others to see His greatness through music. Music has pretty much been the focus of my life for... a long time.... and I love it. :) As of now, my plan is to start our community college's music degree next year. I pretty much know for sure that my knowledge and skill in music will be raised studying there. What I'm unsure of though, is what I'm going to do after that... I feel like God has a plan, but then again, music isn't the most booming field out there right now...

I guess my fear is colliding with my faith at this point. The world tells me that I probably won't be able to succeed out there with music. God tells me that He will provide. He'll give me everything I need if I'm following His will. But if I'm not following His will... that's a dangerous boat to be in.

This morning as I sat down to spend time with the Lord, I recommitted myself to listening to Him and relying on His promises. It's so hard to tune out the world's lies, but that's what I know I need to do. In my Bible reading today was Psalm 138. Verse 8 struck me:

The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; Your love, O Lord, endures forever--
do not abandon the works of Your hands.
Psalm 138:8

So here's my point:
Trust God. Let Him run your life. Does the Maker of the Universe and the Keeper of Time not know what's best?



Julianne said...

Marissa this was the first time I have read your blog, and as I read this post so many of your words reminded me of myself. I have that same planning nature which can unfortunatley lead to times of anxiety and unnecessary worry when I don't have a plan or things don't go the way I planned.

Recently I ready Colossians 3:23 - "whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men." These words have helped calm my nerves about the future and worries about whether or not I was following God's will...and how do I know if I am/am not. Rather whatever I am doing I try to commit my actions fully to God and trust that his will will be done.

You sound like a bright and talented young woman and I'm sure God will use you in many ways :)

Rachel M. said...

Thank you for the wonderful reminder that God knows much better than we do! :)
Blessings to you on this journey!

Andrea Nicole said...

Go get em sista! I know God will help you chose what's best :) i love you

Sarah said...

This is such a beautiful post, Marissa. It really brought to heart the saying that worrying is sin! Faith in God is a must and we *must* trust Him. His will shall be done and will not be changed. You are written on the palms of His hands and He will always look after you.

I miss you girls and hope that all is going well for you.


Stephanie said...

I totally understand what you mean about the whole college choice thing :) hard stuff.

Bethany said...

Marissa! I was just talking to my parents about this exact same thing! Only a few more months and I shall be finished with highschool!!! I've looked forward to this for a long long time. But what next? I THINK I know what I want to do. :) But I hear that people change over the course of college and then want to switch. You are so right, we just have to trust God and put our compete faith in Him. I'll be praying that you can find what His will is for you!


Alyssa said...

Hi! I'm visiting your blog for the first time (from Em On A Mission).

I, too, am 17 years old and rapidly approaching graduation. I'm a planner as well :). I totally understand what it's like to wonder about the future!

God has given me many passions and interests including missions, writing, filmmaking, and working with children/orphans. There are times when I wonder how I'll be able to combine them/do them all.

In my blog (http://mylifewithamission.blogspot.com/), I am hoping to chronicle the adventure as I try to live out my God-given mission.

I'm following your blog now via GFC!